I cast no shadow upon the earth
Nor leave a mark, where I have tread
These things have passed into the nights
And traveled far, down many years
I bear no value - no worth
As other men, who've breathed and bled
For I took the most precious light
And covered it with precious tears
I brought this inner death to bear
Upon two souls, between two lives
And never spoke of what I'd wrought
And rarely grieved, until today
But now, I face the hardest stare
The cruelest face, I've yet to find
It greets me, in the mirrored spot
My own reflection, to my dismay
Could I have been so cruel?
So evil, in my dark desires
To push aside the purest heart
For afternoons of brief encounters?
When he was waiting upon this fool
For me, he burned, with Love's fire
My only glimpse of God - apart
From Heaven's earthly wonders
And yet, I freely gave it all away
To journey forth among the damned,
The lost, the wanton souls of bliss
Who seek not Love, but Lust
For me, the sweetest lips did pray
Not knowing, what I tr
Torn and abused
A piece of me is broken and bleeding.
Ignored and unseen
I must now begin to build a new part
to replace the old.
One that is cold, so that I can't
be hurt again.
I regret having to lose the feeling
of my heart.
But when trust and friendship are
ignored they die.
The love that was shared wasn't
worth the upkeep.
Like an old tattered shirt, it got
Abused and beaten, slowly dying,
But no answer comes, still it
hopes and wishes.
It can't go on forever though.
At some point it must give up
So will the love and friendship
When it dies, who's tears will fall?
Continuously searching for that field of gold.
Forever looking for someone to hold.
Close to my heart.
Never wanting to be apart.
But all I ever feel is a deep chill.
Wonder if I still have the will.
To live day by day.
I sit and pray.
There has to be someone out there.
But I can't see where.
As the days go by.
I sit and wonder why.
I feel the touch of a hand.
But nothing takes me to that fantasy land.
My soul feels dead and weak.
But still I seek.
For one who shares those simple things.
That lead to those golden rings.
A life of security and family.
It's easy to see.
But to capture it.
I just can't make it fit.
I want that dream so bad.
But my heart's so sad.
People use me for pleasure.
I use them to fill the emptiness,
why I'm not sure.
It used to be easy.
Now it's just sleazy.
There's something wrong with everyone.
If it feels right they're gone by rising sun.
I'm left feeling cold.
That scenes already old.
I want to be respected.
I can't let them in.
So I pay the pri
I stand in front of the mirror
And wipe the fog away
My vision is still hazy
From ridding myself this way
My hair is all in tangles
My eyes are filled with tears
I wipe the warm tears away
As if trying to rid myself of my fears
I'm ashamed of what I have done
But it hurts me even more
I can't make myself stop doing it
Even though I know what's in store
It has taken over my mind
It is eating away at my soul
My throat burns with anger
While my stomach growls even more
I am still looking in the mirror
Yet I don't know who I see
All that I know
Is this sad sight couldn't be me
I grip the edge of the counter
So tightly that my knuckles turn white
I want to scream out in anger
At this ugly sight
It's your fault I hiss
That I do this to myself
If only you didn't look this way
I would be in better health
I cover the image in the mirror
With the palm of my hand
And notice a cut on my finger
That I never knew I had
I grab my hand in anger
Or is it more like fright
I'm just so shocked
To see this